I sit here with a cup of coffee trying to slow my mind down. Children are laughing hysterically around me. Bathrooms are getting cleaned. But my mind is rolling. It hits happy moments, and than sad tearful moments..........
It's nothing for the children to walk in the room and say, "Mom! Your eyes are wet again!" and yes they are wet again, and it is nothing new to see lots of tears in our household, and not just from mom either!
There are moments of joy! When we get a letter in the mail from Austin. Work stops, and we gather around and read and re-read the letter till we have soaked everything in that was written.
Home visits! ah YES!! Lots of excitement, planning the day we travel, and the weekend Austin is home.
Prayer. When it is so visual that God has answered another prayer. And you know He is right there with you and knows your every need.
Evenings that are spent around the cook stove eating popcorn and drinking coffee together. Talking about our day, whether it is the good or the bad. (we have a lot of tough days)
Flying. When daddy comes home and announces to the children he will be flying again! We get all excited and start planning for the couple days we will be keeping the home fires burning.
There's lot of tears too. The painful ones. When you find out that a neighbor just had a still born baby, and it brings back painful memories of a miscarriage.
Funeral of a favorite Aunt/best friend.
...and than there's lots of helping your child(ren) work through tough moments of not understanding why Austin has to be gone that long, and it just doesn't feel fair.
A lot of tears flow when I see the boys pants hanging out on the line, and their is one son's missing. And that empty feeling squeezes my heart till I think I am going to just crumple. But instead I just cry.
Fun times.
When you walk into Kroger with 7 children and watch all the workers heads turn and their mouths drop open. Hmmm. They thought you must a' been a single girl. *chuckle* Nothing prideful, but I walked out of there a proud momma of 7 beautiful well mannered children. And their good manners were rewarded up at Winchester Aldi, when a sweet lady rewarded the well mannered children with a prepaid 18 pk Pringles. Oh I guess I am a proud Momma of seven beautiful children!
Logging trees out the woods. Oh yes! I am sure women of the olden days done it! So there is no reason why we can't!
Todays Journal entry:
Last evening I glanced up in time to see Austin cup his ear and say 'huh'. That was a red flag. I asked him what made him cup his ear. Oh, I can't hear. My ear hurt during the trip and it is full of wax. I said, "Oh, Austin that is scar tissue, that can't be wax. Once we get home I will look." I was thinking the whole time, that we had larger issues going on. So this morning first thing I looked in his ear, and all I could see was the scar tissue. Next step was to call the ENT. They were booked. BOOKED! oh, and ma'am could you forward my call to Dr. H. Nurse? I need to leave her a message about another's child's sleep study. Thank you. I got off the phone and called the Pediatrician. Got an appointment. Leaped in the shower, and the phone rang- Dr. H's nurse calling back, saying we need to schedule a adenoidectomy. Whew! Praise the Lord!! No Tonsillectomy this round. The next call was to the Camera shop, get the estimate, Call Wayne for verification. *sigh* get myself ready, fix a PBJ and run out the door. And yes, Silent ear infections AGAIN! (Austin's ear was oozing) This child has been dealing with this all his life, so we are on Antibiotics hoping we see some difference before we head back to camp.
I am home, with little to no energy, after getting in at 1:30 am this morning. Baby is playing happily, children are all out playing ball with Austin. Kayla is sewing, and planning her next few weeks of summer! Our schedule is booked through July 4th so far.
Well, off to snuggle my baby tight and make some taco salad for supper! Keeping is simple is the way to go! Less stress.
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