Every night I go to bed asking the same questions to myself, Worrying about the same things.
1. Did Jesse get his antibiotic
2. Did I take Jesse's temp.
3. How do I go about finding out where Jesse's prescription is?
4. Jesse feels warm, is he running fever.
5. Change his diaper... and thinking his urine smells strong-which antibiotics can do that too.
These are all legit concerns, but I do about worry myself sick sometimes. And than I pick up my baby and just snuggle him tighter. And thank God I have him to hold and love.
Last week, I "whole house shampooed" It almost put me down on the couch for a few days. Today I am fighting myself to keep going, keep working. I was determined to clean the floors by myself. I am normally one to start a project and not even half way through, Wayne has to come along and finish it for me. Oh it was terrible. I will NEVER do that one again. If you know what it is like to have low Vitamin D3 Than you know what I am talking about. The bone and joint pain is so bad you can't hardly walk. The first time I struggled with it was almost 6 years ago, and I literally thought I had leukemia.
Today there are only four children here with me, and we are trying to get on top of the laundry and dishes. It's coming along, but rather slow!
Where the whippoorwills sing and Hoot owls hollor,
Monday, June 30, 2014
Dear Blog,
It has been awhile since I sat down to tell you how we are doing. Oft times I lay in bed wishing I had just a little more energy to write. But there is just nothing left in me. I am tired, my body is exhausted, and all I want to do is sleep. Mornings, I wake up and try to start the day, but by 10:30 I am on count down to 12:00 so I can sleep. Oh yes, I even serve lunch early if that is what it takes to get me on the couch sooner. I stay tired, and that is frustrating me terrible. I have 8 children to run after.
After two weeks of Bible school running-I would take the children out and the bus would drop them off here again. But with all the other schedules to mesh, it was taking a toll on me. By Saturday I had another one of those physical melt downs. Bad enough, I didn't leave the yard until my blood pressure felt stabilized again. Sunday morning the "stove shot willie". That term means, I stayed in bed all day long, and just let the world go by. By Monday morning, I was starting to feel better, but it didn't take much for me to start feeling weird again. So I took it easy all day, rested, drank tea, cleaned up the kitchen... My girls are wonderful. Cooking, doing laundry, etc.
I feel certain, that if I would have rested and eaten the way I should have after the baby was here, I would feel differently. But between conflicting schedules, Dr. appointments, Dentist appointments, etc. there truly was no time to rest.
So here I am, hoping another night of rest will get me even further tomorrow!
So long~
It has been awhile since I sat down to tell you how we are doing. Oft times I lay in bed wishing I had just a little more energy to write. But there is just nothing left in me. I am tired, my body is exhausted, and all I want to do is sleep. Mornings, I wake up and try to start the day, but by 10:30 I am on count down to 12:00 so I can sleep. Oh yes, I even serve lunch early if that is what it takes to get me on the couch sooner. I stay tired, and that is frustrating me terrible. I have 8 children to run after.
After two weeks of Bible school running-I would take the children out and the bus would drop them off here again. But with all the other schedules to mesh, it was taking a toll on me. By Saturday I had another one of those physical melt downs. Bad enough, I didn't leave the yard until my blood pressure felt stabilized again. Sunday morning the "stove shot willie". That term means, I stayed in bed all day long, and just let the world go by. By Monday morning, I was starting to feel better, but it didn't take much for me to start feeling weird again. So I took it easy all day, rested, drank tea, cleaned up the kitchen... My girls are wonderful. Cooking, doing laundry, etc.
I feel certain, that if I would have rested and eaten the way I should have after the baby was here, I would feel differently. But between conflicting schedules, Dr. appointments, Dentist appointments, etc. there truly was no time to rest.
So here I am, hoping another night of rest will get me even further tomorrow!
So long~
Monday, June 16, 2014
A few more pictures from the month of May. It was a busy month for us-
One of my favorites-Annie rocking the mother cat and patting it.
Memorial Day Weekend (Saturday)
Was spent down in Roanoke with my Uncle.
My brother took his boat..(the fast boat)
Mom and Dad showed up in time to baby sit Jesse, I wasn't into taking him out on the water-
We took the Pontoon boat out-it was fast, but not near that of my bro's.
Children just loved it
The fast boat group was come and gone in a jiffy.
We of course took our time looking around.
Till we got back- we lost our spot at the dock.
My bro. camped out by the water-it was beautiful down there. I was happy to just go home and crawl in my bed, with the ac running ;) We do want to go back down there again-camping next time.
Sunday, June 8, 2014
Whew! We are through a seriously busy weekend.........and off into a BIG week!
Saturday morning as we were driving down the road to the Trade Lot, I was going over my weekend/week. "Well," I tell Wayne, "my week is empty all but one day". Till we got home several hours later, and for sure by evening, my week was chock full-AGAIN! Last week I R.A.N. all week long. Friday I was juggling all kinds of schedules. Austin @ the Mill, Kayla cleaning @ my sister Mary's (who just had the baby). Cheyenne and I running the house here @ home, cleaning and cooking. Oh and did I mention that Friday night I received a text about company coming Sunday? Thankfully I left my phone at home while we went to the ball game, or else I would have gone nuts for sure!
Saturday afternoon, we rolled-I mean moved mountains around here. I made a BUNCH of baked spaghetti, because I had committed myself to making my sister Sunday lunch. Than I made a HUGE batch of Peanut Butter dessert, Jell-O ...and oh the baby fussed to be rocked all day long. I fixed Bean bake for supper, and Wayne grilled 80 hamburgers and 30 hotdogs for supper and we were only about 30 minutes late for the picnic.
It is Sunday evening, and lunch as well as the afternoon went wonderful, we made a lot of memories, and discussed old times! It was fun....
Monday morning, I will take Kayla back over to Mary's to clean, cook and wash dishes and clothes. Tuesday is sisters day at Mom's.
Wednesday wash/clean here at home-possibly Kayla to help Mary in the afternoon.
Thursday wash/clean
Friday I will be juggling children and jobs. Austin to the Mill, Cheyenne to watch Mary's children and Kayla here at home to pull things together while Wayne and I take Jesse down to Roanoke to see Dr. Herndon again. Slaughter Hog in the evening
Saturday my sister is having a pig roast.
And that is my week! June is flying by~
kris
Saturday morning as we were driving down the road to the Trade Lot, I was going over my weekend/week. "Well," I tell Wayne, "my week is empty all but one day". Till we got home several hours later, and for sure by evening, my week was chock full-AGAIN! Last week I R.A.N. all week long. Friday I was juggling all kinds of schedules. Austin @ the Mill, Kayla cleaning @ my sister Mary's (who just had the baby). Cheyenne and I running the house here @ home, cleaning and cooking. Oh and did I mention that Friday night I received a text about company coming Sunday? Thankfully I left my phone at home while we went to the ball game, or else I would have gone nuts for sure!
Saturday afternoon, we rolled-I mean moved mountains around here. I made a BUNCH of baked spaghetti, because I had committed myself to making my sister Sunday lunch. Than I made a HUGE batch of Peanut Butter dessert, Jell-O ...and oh the baby fussed to be rocked all day long. I fixed Bean bake for supper, and Wayne grilled 80 hamburgers and 30 hotdogs for supper and we were only about 30 minutes late for the picnic.
It is Sunday evening, and lunch as well as the afternoon went wonderful, we made a lot of memories, and discussed old times! It was fun....
Monday morning, I will take Kayla back over to Mary's to clean, cook and wash dishes and clothes. Tuesday is sisters day at Mom's.
Wednesday wash/clean here at home-possibly Kayla to help Mary in the afternoon.
Thursday wash/clean
Friday I will be juggling children and jobs. Austin to the Mill, Cheyenne to watch Mary's children and Kayla here at home to pull things together while Wayne and I take Jesse down to Roanoke to see Dr. Herndon again. Slaughter Hog in the evening
Saturday my sister is having a pig roast.
And that is my week! June is flying by~
kris
Thursday, June 5, 2014
Our Latest and Sweetest additionTechnology changes over the years~
(A post I had written and saved)
Little Jesse Luke Weaver joined our family Thursday March 6 @ 7:30 pm. weighing in at a whopping 7lbs. 1.4 oz. It is whopping when they say Preemie/NICU/ 37W 5D G/History of Preemies. And this little fellow surprised us all!
All the detachment struggles, extreme worries, unknowns all walked out the door. My health issues were mostly resolved. I am still struggling with low blood pressure. But at least now I know how to deal with them since we are home.
But when Little Jesse entered this world from a secure place inside of his momma, he still brought the medical questions that were raised for months-but only through Ultra Sound. As my Dr. would tell us- "Between fixable and Non-fixable, this is fixable". And once I had little Jesse laying in my arms, I really did forget about what lay ahead of us. The amount of time my Dr. took studying my Ultra Sounds, answering questions...It was unbelievable. I have learned to never question my Drs. gut feeling on something and she said she has learned vise-versa. So Wednesday evening as Wayne was at a Home Group gathering with all the children, I sat at home by the Wood Cook Stove counting contractions thinking: My gut feeling is that this baby NEEDS to be born. I didn't talk to Wayne about it, because I was afraid I was running on Emotions again. Next morning I had him add the car seat to the list of items I always took along. My Aunt who was working as fill in at the office scanned us, it took 1 hr. to do the scan that they had allotted 15 min. for. Fluid was low. Only 2 pockets instead of 4 could be found. Movement was very sluggish. Till Dr. Keene seen me she had made up her mind what was going to happen and when she heard what I was thinking, decision had been made to send me straight over. I was relieved to be honest. This pregnancy has been the hardest I have ever had. For the last I don't know how many weeks I was living on just yogurt and fruit, loosing an abundance of weight. It got to the point I couldn't even hardly drive anymore-just too weak.
8 1/2 hrs. later after induction Little Jesse was born. And we fell in love with him-oh it was unbelievable.
Friday morning the OB came in to tell me hi, the nurse checked my vitals.....and than it was all about Jesse. The Pediatrix Team came in to question us about what we knew of his 'Double Collecting System'. I also made comment that I noticed that his bladder was really big and always full when I would have ultra sound 1-2 times a week. But being a momma and not a Dr. they dismissed it as just needing to void.
So the 1rst step was Ultra Sound
He came back from that and not much later went for his circumcision.
After he came back from that within an hr. they had a catheter in him and were taking him down to radiology to put a dye in him and see if this was a Kidney Reflux problem or Obstruction.
The poor little fellow had an exhausting day. The nurses didn't even push me to nurse him every two hours. He slept through everything, never gave more than a little whimper over a thing. And by the time late afternoon came, I was the emotionally exhausted one, bawling and crying. But I chose to just love my Hospital stay, It was more like being in a motel, send my man out for a cup of coffee, or down to the 'food floor' they have all kinds of little restaurants down there, Italian, Mexican, Subs, Salad bar...Burgers and Onion rings-just some good stuff! take a shower when ever I felt lead....relax, oh it was great!
The diagnosis came back with it being a Kidney Reflux. On a scale of 1-5, 1 being minor, 5 extreme. Little Jesse's was a grade 5. But please stay with me-IT IS FIXABLE! The only reason they put him through so many tests to figure out what was going on, is so they could get all the ducks in a row for us and we could get home and keep that ball rolling. Also it isn't good to put that much stress on a Kidney, you could start loosing function....
Now the Bladder-He unfortunately has one tank of a bladder. And the concern is that he would have a weak muscle that is not telling him to void. So Saturday morning the same Pediatrix Team of Doctors came in to tell us they were going over his files and noticed he had one wet diaper in 24 hrs. I thought it was more like 2 or 3 ? Their concern as well as ours is something would need done this weekend rather than the next two weeks. But after talking, they said that they felt comfortable letting us go home if we keep a close exact count of wet diapers-and my first thought was cloth diapers! We were released to go home Saturday with more medical records than what I care to take with me, but grateful for the wonderful team of Doctors that cared for us during our stay there. We also have to keep Jesse on a round of antibiotics for two weeks to help prevent infection or an UTI to happen till we get everything lined up to see an Urologist at UVA. So Monday morning.....8:30 sharp we will be at the Pediatrician getting the ball rolling.
~later Kris
Little Jesse Luke Weaver joined our family Thursday March 6 @ 7:30 pm. weighing in at a whopping 7lbs. 1.4 oz. It is whopping when they say Preemie/NICU/ 37W 5D G/History of Preemies. And this little fellow surprised us all!
All the detachment struggles, extreme worries, unknowns all walked out the door. My health issues were mostly resolved. I am still struggling with low blood pressure. But at least now I know how to deal with them since we are home.
But when Little Jesse entered this world from a secure place inside of his momma, he still brought the medical questions that were raised for months-but only through Ultra Sound. As my Dr. would tell us- "Between fixable and Non-fixable, this is fixable". And once I had little Jesse laying in my arms, I really did forget about what lay ahead of us. The amount of time my Dr. took studying my Ultra Sounds, answering questions...It was unbelievable. I have learned to never question my Drs. gut feeling on something and she said she has learned vise-versa. So Wednesday evening as Wayne was at a Home Group gathering with all the children, I sat at home by the Wood Cook Stove counting contractions thinking: My gut feeling is that this baby NEEDS to be born. I didn't talk to Wayne about it, because I was afraid I was running on Emotions again. Next morning I had him add the car seat to the list of items I always took along. My Aunt who was working as fill in at the office scanned us, it took 1 hr. to do the scan that they had allotted 15 min. for. Fluid was low. Only 2 pockets instead of 4 could be found. Movement was very sluggish. Till Dr. Keene seen me she had made up her mind what was going to happen and when she heard what I was thinking, decision had been made to send me straight over. I was relieved to be honest. This pregnancy has been the hardest I have ever had. For the last I don't know how many weeks I was living on just yogurt and fruit, loosing an abundance of weight. It got to the point I couldn't even hardly drive anymore-just too weak.
8 1/2 hrs. later after induction Little Jesse was born. And we fell in love with him-oh it was unbelievable.
Friday morning the OB came in to tell me hi, the nurse checked my vitals.....and than it was all about Jesse. The Pediatrix Team came in to question us about what we knew of his 'Double Collecting System'. I also made comment that I noticed that his bladder was really big and always full when I would have ultra sound 1-2 times a week. But being a momma and not a Dr. they dismissed it as just needing to void.
So the 1rst step was Ultra Sound
He came back from that and not much later went for his circumcision.
After he came back from that within an hr. they had a catheter in him and were taking him down to radiology to put a dye in him and see if this was a Kidney Reflux problem or Obstruction.
The poor little fellow had an exhausting day. The nurses didn't even push me to nurse him every two hours. He slept through everything, never gave more than a little whimper over a thing. And by the time late afternoon came, I was the emotionally exhausted one, bawling and crying. But I chose to just love my Hospital stay, It was more like being in a motel, send my man out for a cup of coffee, or down to the 'food floor' they have all kinds of little restaurants down there, Italian, Mexican, Subs, Salad bar...Burgers and Onion rings-just some good stuff! take a shower when ever I felt lead....relax, oh it was great!
The diagnosis came back with it being a Kidney Reflux. On a scale of 1-5, 1 being minor, 5 extreme. Little Jesse's was a grade 5. But please stay with me-IT IS FIXABLE! The only reason they put him through so many tests to figure out what was going on, is so they could get all the ducks in a row for us and we could get home and keep that ball rolling. Also it isn't good to put that much stress on a Kidney, you could start loosing function....
Now the Bladder-He unfortunately has one tank of a bladder. And the concern is that he would have a weak muscle that is not telling him to void. So Saturday morning the same Pediatrix Team of Doctors came in to tell us they were going over his files and noticed he had one wet diaper in 24 hrs. I thought it was more like 2 or 3 ? Their concern as well as ours is something would need done this weekend rather than the next two weeks. But after talking, they said that they felt comfortable letting us go home if we keep a close exact count of wet diapers-and my first thought was cloth diapers! We were released to go home Saturday with more medical records than what I care to take with me, but grateful for the wonderful team of Doctors that cared for us during our stay there. We also have to keep Jesse on a round of antibiotics for two weeks to help prevent infection or an UTI to happen till we get everything lined up to see an Urologist at UVA. So Monday morning.....8:30 sharp we will be at the Pediatrician getting the ball rolling.
~later Kris
T-win Day
Yesterday was T----WIN day as we called it. Dakota and Annie were at Grandma's and it was good since the twins have been focused only on each other since the trip.
Before I left to take the other two to Grandma's I told the Twins to take the sheets off Carries bed, Fix the boys bed than fix mom's bed, than they can go play.
Later on in the day, I told the twins Thank you for fixing my bed! Carrie responded with her normal, 'Your welcome', and Carters normal 'Yup'. Than I looked at them and said, well you guys didn't even fix my bed did you?? and they both chorused. "NOPE". *sigh*
Carter was wishing he had a flying suit and a remote control that he could fly himself outside, and Carrie said, " I am so happy for you Carter". I wasn't sure if she was just handing out a compliment or if she was thinking good riddance ;) I never know with her!
As said, the twins are double the fun and triple trouble!
Today we are staying home, cleaning house and just enjoying a little more relaxation! But that could end any moment. I have found that one phone call can change your whole day around! And it's ok, that is why I am not a scheduled person, but very flexible.
And please remind me to drink sugar free Garden mint Tea next time, my baby was wired A.L.L. N.I.G.H.T. long. Arms and legs flailing, bad enough, he flipped off the bed. Thankfully our mattress is on the floor so he didn't have far to fall. His arms are legs were still flailing at 3:45 this morning when Wayne got up for work, Jesse's eyes were big as saucers! And I was exhausted! Wayne thought it was quite humorous...I didn't! I sweetly reminded him that he had uninterrupted sleep-I didn't have sleep at all! *sigh*
Here is my little angel! We love him to pieces! This morning he took to laughing-which had us all in tears laughing too!
Oh how we love him!! Somehow those sleepless nights get forgotten quickly when you see a huge grin like this!
Before I left to take the other two to Grandma's I told the Twins to take the sheets off Carries bed, Fix the boys bed than fix mom's bed, than they can go play.
Later on in the day, I told the twins Thank you for fixing my bed! Carrie responded with her normal, 'Your welcome', and Carters normal 'Yup'. Than I looked at them and said, well you guys didn't even fix my bed did you?? and they both chorused. "NOPE". *sigh*
Carter was wishing he had a flying suit and a remote control that he could fly himself outside, and Carrie said, " I am so happy for you Carter". I wasn't sure if she was just handing out a compliment or if she was thinking good riddance ;) I never know with her!
As said, the twins are double the fun and triple trouble!
Today we are staying home, cleaning house and just enjoying a little more relaxation! But that could end any moment. I have found that one phone call can change your whole day around! And it's ok, that is why I am not a scheduled person, but very flexible.
And please remind me to drink sugar free Garden mint Tea next time, my baby was wired A.L.L. N.I.G.H.T. long. Arms and legs flailing, bad enough, he flipped off the bed. Thankfully our mattress is on the floor so he didn't have far to fall. His arms are legs were still flailing at 3:45 this morning when Wayne got up for work, Jesse's eyes were big as saucers! And I was exhausted! Wayne thought it was quite humorous...I didn't! I sweetly reminded him that he had uninterrupted sleep-I didn't have sleep at all! *sigh*
Here is my little angel! We love him to pieces! This morning he took to laughing-which had us all in tears laughing too!
Wednesday, June 4, 2014
And life has caught up...
Monday morning around 1:30 am we crawled into our beds. After being gone a 4 day weekend to PA. It was fun, but there ain't nothing like being home and in your own bed! I woke exhausted and told myself to just fix breakfast and you can crawl back in bed for a nap. That really didn't happen, instead around 1:30 pm I found myself buckling up baby Jesse and crawling back into the van again. This time for an hour drive south to the Memorial Hospital for Jesse's Ultra sound on his Kidneys and bladder. Wayne went with me.. As we sat in the waiting room, waiting for our name to be called, I looked up to see another tiny baby out of the nursery being wheeled past us in it's little bed. Immediately I felt a huge lump swell up in my throat and I choked the sobs back. Flashbacks. Oh how I despise them! 3 months ago I was the mother in the hospital bed, watching the transport team take my baby for tests, ultrasounds, etc. waiting reports, Drs. and Pediatrix team about lived in our room during that 3 day hospital stay. I remember trying to take a quick shower in-between visits from the team. Sitting in my bed numb, with what all we were going through. Today (Monday) I couldn't help but send up a bullet Prayer for the mother of the baby that was heading into Ultra-Sound.
Than unfortunately I happened to have another flashback on the way home, this time it was something that I happened during my mental break down. It left me frozen and unable to talk. I know being exhausted from a trip didn't help my mental state at all either.
Tuesday morning I had to get up early, I needed to be left at 9:15 for a wellness check for Jesse. I didn't really think about grabbing his meds before I headed out the door-but will make sure I do next time. I had to call Kayla and ask her "how many mg's are in a ML, in Jesse's antibiotic?" We managed to get the numbers right-at last. As I was heading down the road for town, I made a quick phone call to the dentist saying "Jackie, I just can't make it in Thursday with the children, I am exhausted and just can't do three days in town in a row". Oh she was so sweet and totally understood. Do you know two hrs. later Kayla desperately was calling to let me know that Cheyenne was flossing her teeth and pulled her filling out-so guess what, second call to the dentist.. appointment at 4 pm. So I went home, scurried around for 1.5 hours and was back on the road again, I didn't get home till 7:00. And ran till 11:00.
Wednesday- I took two of my chilluns to Grandma's to play with two of the cousins. The house was quiet and I layed down for a nap-too tired to care about the suitcases that are still staring at me in the face. I finished editing pictures, burned those to a cd, cooked supper, and rocked the baby all day. Kayla worked on mint tea concentrate for the second day in a row. She has a lot in the freezer for over the summer months. Mint tea is so refreshing!
I will leave you with a few pictures of our weekend away. It was so much fun, and thanks to Allen and Kathy for opening up their home to us. We had 14 children, 2 sets of parents and 1 Grandma under the same roof. Oh and did I mention 1 bathroom! We survived very well!
Monday morning around 1:30 am we crawled into our beds. After being gone a 4 day weekend to PA. It was fun, but there ain't nothing like being home and in your own bed! I woke exhausted and told myself to just fix breakfast and you can crawl back in bed for a nap. That really didn't happen, instead around 1:30 pm I found myself buckling up baby Jesse and crawling back into the van again. This time for an hour drive south to the Memorial Hospital for Jesse's Ultra sound on his Kidneys and bladder. Wayne went with me.. As we sat in the waiting room, waiting for our name to be called, I looked up to see another tiny baby out of the nursery being wheeled past us in it's little bed. Immediately I felt a huge lump swell up in my throat and I choked the sobs back. Flashbacks. Oh how I despise them! 3 months ago I was the mother in the hospital bed, watching the transport team take my baby for tests, ultrasounds, etc. waiting reports, Drs. and Pediatrix team about lived in our room during that 3 day hospital stay. I remember trying to take a quick shower in-between visits from the team. Sitting in my bed numb, with what all we were going through. Today (Monday) I couldn't help but send up a bullet Prayer for the mother of the baby that was heading into Ultra-Sound.
Than unfortunately I happened to have another flashback on the way home, this time it was something that I happened during my mental break down. It left me frozen and unable to talk. I know being exhausted from a trip didn't help my mental state at all either.
Tuesday morning I had to get up early, I needed to be left at 9:15 for a wellness check for Jesse. I didn't really think about grabbing his meds before I headed out the door-but will make sure I do next time. I had to call Kayla and ask her "how many mg's are in a ML, in Jesse's antibiotic?" We managed to get the numbers right-at last. As I was heading down the road for town, I made a quick phone call to the dentist saying "Jackie, I just can't make it in Thursday with the children, I am exhausted and just can't do three days in town in a row". Oh she was so sweet and totally understood. Do you know two hrs. later Kayla desperately was calling to let me know that Cheyenne was flossing her teeth and pulled her filling out-so guess what, second call to the dentist.. appointment at 4 pm. So I went home, scurried around for 1.5 hours and was back on the road again, I didn't get home till 7:00. And ran till 11:00.
Wednesday- I took two of my chilluns to Grandma's to play with two of the cousins. The house was quiet and I layed down for a nap-too tired to care about the suitcases that are still staring at me in the face. I finished editing pictures, burned those to a cd, cooked supper, and rocked the baby all day. Kayla worked on mint tea concentrate for the second day in a row. She has a lot in the freezer for over the summer months. Mint tea is so refreshing!
I will leave you with a few pictures of our weekend away. It was so much fun, and thanks to Allen and Kathy for opening up their home to us. We had 14 children, 2 sets of parents and 1 Grandma under the same roof. Oh and did I mention 1 bathroom! We survived very well!
now off to find a little more sleep!
Kris
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