A lot of water has crossed the dam...........

On April 5th, I lost my best friend, that seen me through life, from the day I was born till I turned 37. My Dad. Grief is amazing. It hurts, leaves you feeling nauseas, incapable to handle things as simple as brushing your teeth, washing dishes or bathing your children. You are exhausted at the weirdest times.
It has been almost four months now that dad is gone, reality is starting to set in. But, I also felt myself slide from the ugly grieving into just grieving. Is that called grieving with joy? I don't know, but I do know that there is more peace as time goes along. We are able to take a day at a time instead of an hour at a time. We feel more functional where as before very dysfunctional. We shut school down back in April. The children took there CAT tests... they done fine.
Every day my mind is flooded with memories of dad. And we have really been reliving that Wednesday in April that dad so suddenly died from Cardiac Arrest. Dad's Dr told me the other day that if there was ever a man ready to die, it was my dad! And yes, dad was ready to go Home!
More later...............

It's been awhile. A lot of water has crossed the dam since the last time I posted something.

We have had a graduation from Allegany Boys Camp

We have added a Sweet 'Emmy Lou' to our home

Our oldest was enrolled in our Community College.

I could write a whole post on each of those changes that has taken place. How they each have affected us and how we have responded well, and not so well to them.

Grace is a huge thing.

We kiss these littles little toes and thank God that there are 10 of them to kiss. And we Thank Him that she was born so healthy and not with suspected health issues.

 I have been blessed watching these little and big ones learn. It is rewarding as a parent teaching them to see progress being made.

This year, I have 6 in school (homeschool) and our oldest taking her last year of school in the local college. Actually let me say this. She has tested so well she was able to do all her pre-requisites for the RN program in her last high school year. That has been a huge mile stone

 This year has held the normal. Butchering. Scrapple making for the entire year.

And there is this little girl that loves her daddy. She gets so happy and excited when he walks in the door. I love seeing the eagerness to get into his arms.
I will write more later after our trip to get the lingual arches checked in two of the children. This is a visit I always enjoy, the Ortho is like family. We sit and talk deeper than just smiles!